Stab the Knife Through My Heart (5/10/2011)

He did the unspeakable. Then you came into my life and swept me off my feet. I believed in you and I loved you with everything I had. In fact, I gave you every single piece of me that I could. We got forced apart but I still wanted to be with you, I needed you. But as soon as I wasn’t at your beck and call anymore for your pleasures, you flushed it all away with no explanation and no desire to turn back. You got your pleasure somewhere else, but no matter who you go to, they will never love you like I did. They will never treat you or care for you like I did and was willing to for the rest of my life. And the saddest part of all? I still love you and forgive you. Even with all of the physical and emotional pain that I am put through every single day because you hurt me. I would drop everything to be with you, to be there at your beck and call at any moment of any day, despite how bad you have treated me. And why is that? Because I fucking love you Josh. I felt on top of the world when I was with you. You gave me hope and faith and pure happiness. I felt protected and loved, which is all I ever want out of life, and you gave that to me! You helped me heal from my past and now I need to be healed from the past that you have inflicted on me. But just like last time when I gave you a similar speech, Your going to walk away. Walk away like nothing happened and leave me here bleeding on the floor. Helpless, hurt, and goddamned broken.